I finally, actually, became scared when I pulled into the remote campsite, which I arrived at by the recommendation of the founder of Catherine Hill Winery. I stopped at the tasting room in Bar Harbor based on the “Free Wine Tasting Anytime” sign, but I left with free “if-I-didn’t-have-to-work-I-would” advice.
McClellan Park is not that remote: you can type “McClellan Park, Milbridge ME 04658” into Google Maps and it will get you there. But there’s no way to get any cell phone service at this $10-a-night campground. You’ll have to drive back to actual Milbridge, a town where the only places to loiter are a Mexican restaurant (dinner) and a diner (breakfast and lunch). I talk on my phone, eat french fries and a taco, and finish reading Slaughterhouse Five at the Mexican restaurant. I could easily be in Sardis, Mississippi. I still stick out.
I arrive back at the campground just in time: at 6:00, the caretaker drives through and collects payments in cash from anyone who’s pitched a tent for the night. He offers pickling cucumbers and tomatoes from his garden, since he grows more than he can eat. I think of how my dad would thrive running this sort of operation. He asks questions, and makes a joke about the young couple from town who camp out here every once and awhile for a “tryst.” He tells me that, if he could, he’d be at Baxter State Park right now. That’s the second pull to visit that far upstate for me: in my head, I add a second tally to the count of reasons-to-go. (The first is Mount Katahdin, the famed formation that initiates the Appalachian Trail and on which there is abundant literature.)
This campsite is run by the town of Milbridge, on coastal land that someone donated, and for which the town hasn’t come up with another use. I feel right at home. The caretaker offers me firewood—some dry birch that’s been in the shed for a while and should be dry. He also brings newspaper, and I build my first solo fire. I slice the tomato and eat it with bread and cheese. The fire burns for hours—too well almost, and I let it go to embers so that I can traipse on the coastal rocks a few hundred yards away. From there, stars are mostly everything.
The next morning, I go back to that coast and settle on a boulder that’s angled forward, so that I can sit for hours in a half-lotus with a notebook on my lap. I write a story. It’s…just a first draft of something, but it’s there. I have the coast, the islands, the water, the possibility of sharks all to myself.
On the way out of town, I eat at the diner. The waitress’s accent is amazing, like nothing I’ve ever heard. I learn her name because everyone calls her by it. Everyone talks about how school starts later that week. There are no children in the diner.
I drive to Baxter, and end up stopping at a populous campground with free coffee in the lobby, free kayaks by the water, and release forms for use of the kayaks. Driving to my campsite, there are people asking for directions to their site. At night, there is a beer pong game nearby, and a family of forty singing eighties pop songs right up until quiet hours. The next day I find out I’m not allowed to climb Katahdin if I didn’t reserve parking a couple of months ahead. There is nothing here like Milbridge.